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Summer 2015

I had relapses and I still do but the thoughts are so much weaker, they disappear over time faster.

My story could be a bit unique in it’s own way. I’m not a native speaker and I’m from Russia myself but I’ve been following the topic of OCD for year and a half to help myself. My sources for any kind of OCD knowledge had been purely in English because I find it has much a diverse information on Pure OCD and Russian sources happen to be quite limited on it. I’m 27 year old male, I’m a freelance worker and my story begins.

Growing up I did not really notice I might have a mental issue such as OCD, but looking back now, I could say it has been with me since I can remember myself. I had problems with high level of anxiety, but as I thought back then, it comes from the point of me being a very emotional person. But the Pure OCD revealed itself in its full power much later in my life, when I was the happiest I’d been.

It happened 2 years ago and to this day I still can’t believe I had to deal with it, even tho my Pure OCD did not go away fully (and never will), I learned how to manage it.

My story begins on summer 2015 when I met a woman that I fell in love with, as deeply as one can imagine and my strong feelings were mutual as she felt the same. But it’s not as easy as it sounds because we happened to live in different countries and we met online. She is from Germany and I am from Russia.

I don’t want you to think that I’m writing a love story here and not about OCD, but trust me, it’s more like an OCD story with love being a main part as an activating point of my Pure OCD that had been with me all my life but was not bothering me as much until I’ve got somebody I care about and not just myself.

Since we met, we’ve been inseparable as much as distance allows. That summer was my happiest time of my life, and when Pure OCD hit me deep, it felt like for these unbelievably happy moments I had to pay by dealing with it. By going into details of meeting this woman, which I will refer in this story as J., I want define how I was getting into the worst state of OCD I had ever experienced in my entire life, which was not limited only to emotional distress, due to overdose of positive and happy feelings.

But let’s keep the story in order.
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Dr Steven Phillipson – Recovery From Thinking The Unthinkable

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In episode 99 I interviewed Dr Steven Phillipson. Steven is a licensed clinical psychologist who specializes in Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy for OCD. He co-founded the first CBT/Support group for OCD sufferers in the New York area in 1987. Steven is the Clinical Director at the Center for Cognitive Behavioral Psychotherapy.

Dr Steven Phillipson

In this episode I chat with Steven about the history behind the term Pure O, OCD support groups, therapy homework, you get out of therapy what you put in, the commonalities among OCD themes, how not to get stuck in the content/theme of the OCD thought, why OCD isn’t evil it’s just a friendly brain in overdrive, when a parent and child has the same theme of OCD, why a thought is just a thought, living by your values despite what ever emotion may be present, a relapse prevention strategy, dealing with false memory OCD, and learning to live in the present. Enjoy!


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CHRISSIE HODGES – PURE O (PART 2)

In episode 84 I interviewed Chrissie Hodges as a part two. You can find part one of the interview here – Chrissie Hodges Pure O (Part One). Chrissie is a Mental Health Advocate & Public Speaker, Peer Support Coach, Author of ‘Pure OCD: The Invisible Side of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder’. Chrissie was awarded the Hero award at the 24th IOCDF conference in San Fran and is a global ambassador for the Shaw Mind Foundation.

Chrissie Hodges

I had another fun and insightful chat with Chrissie. We discussed many topics including dealing with anger, dealing with people who say “I’m so OCD”, not taking on other peoples thoughts and self care. We also talked about peer support, processing guilt, speaking out about your theme, visualisation, finding what you enjoy, finding out who you are, medical and emotional recovery. Enjoy!

Recovery is fluid, recovery is possible” – Chrissie Hodges


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Chrissie Hodges – Pure O (Part 1)

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In episode 83 I interviewed Chrissie Hodges. Chrissie is a Mental Health Advocate & Public Speaker, Peer Support Coach, Author of ‘Pure OCD: The Invisible Side of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder’. Chrissie was awarded the Hero award at the 24th IOCDF conference in San Fran and is a global ambassador for the Shaw Mind Foundation.

Chrissie Hodges

I had a fun and insightful chat with Chrissie. We covered topics such as dealing with personal stigma, Pure O, talking about sexual and violent intrusive thoughts, depression, supports in recovery: exercise, talking with peers and self awareness, using the term Pure O, dealing with an identity crisis, being able to forgive yourself – it’s not your fault, memories, suffering is suffering, and being kind to yourself. Enjoy!


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ERP for Pure O

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In episode 56 of the podcast I cover a question I have been asked and seen around the web many times, “how do I do ERP for Pure O?”. There are many great ways of doing this, however I share a couple ways on this episode, focusing on a technique called imaginal exposure in particular. Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP) therapy is best done with a therapist as it can be quite emotionally challenging and the therapist is trained to help you get the most out of it.

Do the thing you fear most and the death of fear is certain – Mark Twain

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Kat Nicole – OCD 1 Year On

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In episode 52 of The OCD Stories podcast I interviewed YouTuber (Shalom Aleichem) and OCD blogger Katlyn Nicole on her journey of recovery from OCD. Kat was on the podcast exactly one year ago.

Katlyn Nicole

Due to a technical issue I lost the first half of the podcast. The second half that I still have contains a lot of good information. Kat is an intelligent young lady, she knows her stuff around OCD. We talked about talking openly about OCD, advocacy, how to explain to someone who doesn’t have OCD what OCD is. We talk about creativity and goals, and Kat shares her advice on how to live an amazing life. Enjoy!

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Say No to OCD with the nOCD app

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In episode 30 of The OCD Stories podcast I talked with Stephen Smith. Stephen co-founded the OCD app nOCD. The app is great so it was a pleasure to get him on the show to discuss the app and his OCD journey.

Stephen Smith nOCD

In this episode I talk with Stephen about his nOCD app. We discuss the features, how it is helping OCD sufferers recover and what is next for the app. We also talked about his battle with Pure O, the idea that recovery is possible and why people with OCD can become great problem solvers. Stephen shares some great wisdom at the end to help you in your OCD journey. Enjoy!

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Catlin Palmer – Accept anything and you can transcend everything

In episode 29 of The OCD Stories podcast I talked with Catlin A. Palmer. Catlin graduated from Idaho State University with a Bachelors in Psychology and a Masters degree in Social Work. He is a life coach, focusing on transformation of the mind. Catlin also shared his story on our website earlier this year.

Catlin Palmer

In this episode I chat with Catlin about his OCD journey, specifically Pure O. He also talks about depression and social anxiety. Drug addiction has been a part of Catlin’s journey, we discuss this and how he is overcoming addiction. We discuss how education helps, medication for OCD, the importance of exercise, and why accepting yourself helps. Enjoy!

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“Whack-A-Mole Brain” An OCD Poem

Every freckle on my skin tells a story,
and not just about the time I forgot to wear sunscreen.
The latest freckle,
three finger widths from the inside of my left elbow is a sad one.
It’s a different story than what the freckle directly under my right shoulder blade tells. That one is from the outdoor folk festival last July.
On that day my brain wasn’t loud enough to interrupt the music.

This latest blemish is from the rooftop barbecue yesterday where I was under water (in a figurative sense, it was surprisingly scorching hot).
Yesterday I had nothing to contribute to the conversation.
My presence didn’t feel enough.
Taking up space and simply smiling like I always used to do wouldn’t cut it.
That’s the thing about experiences— once you’ve pushed the limit to what you think you’re capable of time and time again, you can rarely sit back and be satisfied.
Like Ariel the mermaid, my brain was singing, “I want more.”

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My OCD Transformation

Accept anything and you can transcend everything.

I can describe and give an in-depth, detailed account of the intricate ways OCD affects my mind all too well. My mind and the mechanics have always fundamentally been the same. Never once do I remember my mind being any different than the way it already is, was, and always has been. However, I’ve discovered focusing on this path too much ultimately only causes more confusion…and more problems. I’ve experienced how it leads you “down the rabbit hole” into an endless cycle of a game you can’t win. And I know, because I’ve played. Endlessly. Sure, you might win some battles, but it’s never long lived. Eventually, after each loss, you’re left more damaged and confused than the last time.

Not long ago, I was so focused and obsessed on figuring out my mind that I refused to quit, to a fault. No matter how much distress or added suffering it caused me I pushed on. Even though I’ve lived with these conditions my entire life, I had never actually stumbled upon anything tangible until a handful of years ago. I had become obsessed with the intrusive and unwanted thoughts plaguing my mind everyday. Once I discovered these “impostors,” I couldn’t leave them alone. I needed so badly to comprehend the entirety of these conditions. It was like I needed to know almost more than I needed to breathe, quite literally.

Ultimately, I have found that to truly grasp the totality of these conditions on a constant basis is impossible. Even if I could, to always have an answer for every unanswered question is literally hopeless. It’s draining and defeating. However, once I learned that OCD is largely hereditary and biological, it provided me with a figurative sigh of relief. I think it really helped to know that no matter what, these conditions are here to stay regardless of my attempts to fully understand them or not. In other words, it is irrelevant if I am able to understand the ins and outs of OCD if I’m going to let it completely consume me.

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