So to everyone out there fighting, welcome to the team. We’re all in this together.
I’ve always loved writing. There’s something great about getting your thoughts down on paper (or on screen as the case may be).
Unfortunately, my OCD has infused writing with a great deal of anxiety. This is because of my fear of plagiarism. When I write, my mind can become flushed with a major, blown-out-of-proportion, completely irrational fear that I am stealing someone else’s words and ideas. I could literally be typing down something that happened to me this morning, and part of me would doubt that it was my idea. Anytime I think of something super clever, a big part of me doubts that it was really original and often I am afraid to share it as my own.
This fits in with one of my main OCD worry themes: dishonesty. I hate the idea of stealing, cheating, or otherwise misrepresenting what is mine. This fear easily flows into the writing process. If I find an article that sparks an idea, I wonder if my idea is too close to what I had read.